pause and reflect~

I know it's been awhile since my last post ...

I'm not giving up ... or giving in ...

I'm just tired ... and needed some time.

My hospital stay this time around really knocked the wind out of my sails.  I've been home now for 3 days and I still can't get with the program.  I feel so weak. 

It's so frustrating ...  just a few weeks ago I was singing the praises of feeling so good.  Now I'm so pooped out ... I can't sleep, I can't eat, I can't think.  I feel like a walking time bomb. 

I feel so bad for my hubby and kids and the rest of my family ...
They want me to feel better ...
I want to feel better ...
but all I feel like doing right now is crying.

I don't want to be on this pity wagon; but I can't seem to jump off of it right now. 

I talked with the doctor about it ...
and I know it's just part of the stages I'll go through.

Well ...
This blog is my therapy ... and my readers my therapist.

Until next time ...
So it goes in my neck of the woods.


  1. Hey girlfriend, you get better so we can get back at the games!

    Missed your kisses New Year's Eve.


  2. I feel so helpless for you Mel but know I can only pray for you and let all of it in God's hands. I know how hard that must be to hear sometimes but I also know that you have a VERY Strong FAITH in GOD's Power....stay warm and get all the rest you need.
    God will provide it for you.
    Peaceful day to you and sleep
    Blessings Be Yours Dear Sister
    Blessings Be Yours

  3. Hi Mel, I pretty much know how you feel. I didn't know you were in the hospital but I suspected it. I know how chf can drain you, I just bitch about it all the time. I know nobody wants to hear my complaints, but I guess it makes me feel better. I always wonder how you can accomplish so much, well now you just stop it!!! Get some much needed rest and stop feeling guilty about it. Love you girl.

  4. I think somebody needs a sister and brother in law visit... so as soon as we're over these awful headcolds, you're getting a hug palooza! Love you and miss you lots.

  5. I feel so bad for you! I wondered what had happened to you, and now I know. Well take care, get lots of rest and don't worry about the rest. Keep the faith, it does help.

  6. The Hospital?!!! Goodness Gracious! This I was not aware of so while I am sorry to be reading you were in the hospital I am more ashamed I was not aware :(

    CHF? I am not sure if I know exactly what this is . . . maybe if you are up to it you could do an entry to help inform others about this . . . sometimes that helps a bit, to educate others especially when it is a first hand experience, I think we learn more from personal experiences sometimes over the book experiences if you know what I mean . . .

    Deep breaths, deep breaths :) and hang in there . . .You are in My Prayers, Well Wishes & Warmest of Warm Thoughts . . . ALWAYS :)

    ~ May you ALWAYS be Blessed & may you ALWAYS Bless others ~